Focus

In all of life there are things you can choose: things you can change, things you can opt for, things that you expect.

Those things are never guaranteed.

When everything hits the fan, the bottom drops out, and you find yourself flat out on the floor staring at the ceiling asking “What just happened?”—

That is an unasked-for opportunity.

Re-focus.

Ultimately the God we serve is in Control. He is the Sovereign power of the Universe and He controls the chaos.

(There is really no such thing as chaos.)

I have a mind to reset. That is my choice.

In the past few years I saw and experienced great loss. Great change.

I am, subsequently, changed. There is nothing in my power to keep things “the same.”

Oh, sure, I still like chocolate. I still like pink and horses and Corgis. (I’m eternally 3 years old, apparently).

But things have changed. Relationships have changed. People have changed.

It isn’t that I don’t care, but I simply do not have the capability to care for the things I did care for formerly.

I have to refocus.

I have let many things go.

I’ve allowed myself time to set my face toward new paths.

If you feel left out of my focus I apologize. I mean no ill intent. I have simply downsized in a manner that is revolutionary for my sphere. Basically I’m focusing on Ed and Cherie. We, together, have a mission right now, and we three are going to work on that task. This is my focus, this is our focus. Each of us has our own goals and duty, but together we can take on a bigger project, just one, and we’ve decided on it.

Please don’t feel left out: I can’t handle anymore choices right now, anymore issues, anymore loss, anymore relationship.

The Lord is anchoring me in a new place.

I’m different. I’m changed.

My past is a blessing, a memory, and those of you who are a part of it are cherished.

Kiss me good-bye and wish me well.

I’m refocused.