My little world continues to micro-evolve. Day to day there are changes that we must encounter, decide upon, and adapt to. Some things cease to happen, others begin.
When people leave this sphere there are so many adjustments to make.
Birth and marriage are huge adjustments, but I think death is the biggest one. Things are so final, so unchangeable. It seems like it is a new existence entirely, a whole new world, as the Disney song proclaims.
For my 95-year-old dad right now, decline is the name of the game. I have no idea how long this “game” lasts. It is unchartable territory. Someone with his strength and long-lasting good health can see incremental decline limited to certain aspects of his overall health.
For the time being my life is completely encompassed with his care.
This is a new experience for me, and one that I am reluctant with. I admit it. I love my dad! I hate seeing this slow progression.
It isn’t easy for any of us.
I’ve already gotten several calls to substitute teach, this week, even. (Shock!) but am declining for the time being. We are searching for good help, and that is a real challenge.
Times they are a-changing.
I cannot swim in the afternoons because the YMCA cannot find lifeguards to work. Our society is in need of laborers in a huge way. It’s uncanny.
Where have all the people gone? Covid?
I can almost imagine a world where two people are left after a prolonged battle with aliens. A thriller. It’s really a nightmare.
There’s a book the kids were reading for school called “Alas, Babylon” a few years back. That story comes to mind as people re-set after pandemic.
Life is hard. I know it.
I learned that one of Corgi Hollows’ top fans passed away recently. Heart failure. I’m sad. We all think about Covid and its related effects. Because I believe it may have affected my husband’s heart I think about this from time to time, and note how many other men in their fifties have passed away suddenly like him. It’s a thought to ponder.
This person was only one month younger than my husband, so same age group.
Meanwhile I will try to sleep, swim, do CrossFit, and manage life as it happens. Challenges. Limiting life’s activities to the bare minimum is survival.
I’m learning this. Simplify, simplify, simplify.
It’s true.
Come, Lord Jesus!
Maranatha!