It’s a beautiful day here in Minnesota, but (it seems) per usual, I am battling sadness in the sunshine, recovering after a bout of bad storms.
I am struggling with the balance of regret, grief, loss, sorrow and trust.
Legitimate sorrow and even despair is countered by trust.
Our glorious hope counter-balances ALL despair.
Yet each day brings its trials and troubles, the persecutions and losses. How does one walk the fence between these realities?
I had water in my basement yesterday after the tornadoes went through.
Three separate contracts with the water-proofing people and I had water in my basement.
Yet there was a bad storm. Almost four inches of rain fell here.
Do you see my dilemma? Catastrophic events trump even the best guarantees.
Yet I will call them for an opinion.
I will call the AC/furnace people to get that 30 year old system replaced.
I will call the garage door people to replace the broken door openers.
Hey, I called the septic system guy! I am sure he will get back to me…
I just get a bit down as I face these house things on my own. Is anyone out there understanding this?
I have a huge problem brewing in my pasture. Logs from the trees that needed to be cut lie all over, preventing any mowing from happening.
No mowing means small trees taking root. It’s a constant battle against nature taking over.
These problems are sometimes insurmountable to me. I can make calls for “professional help” but it never ends.
Limited resources, limited time, limited strength.
I am working as much as I can this summer. I am picking up shifts at the hotel as others take vacations.
Yes, I am complaining today. I find decisions like I am facing very hard to make on my own. I have been taken advantage of.
The Lord knows, and EVERYONE is accountable to HIM.
I try to remember that vengeance is the Lord’s. It’s not mine.
So enters my trust. I will trust in God.
I will trust Him to help me. I will trust Him to guide me. I will trust Him to take care of me.
I will walk forward, even in my discouragement.
Do you know why I look for Jesus’ return for us? Life is really hard.
Pray for those who were hit by the tornadoes. My home, thank the Lord, sustained minimal damage. God is always good, even in the storms of life.
MARANATHA