It was 1989, and Brian and I got married on this date that year.
I should be celebrating an anniversary today, and I sort of do, but it’s lonely.
I visited his grave on his birthday, the other day. With each year the ache grows duller.
I still feel a bit of anger, lostness, disappointment, loss, grief, wonder as I stand at the gravestone which repeats a hopeful phrase from Scripture: “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard. “
Brian said that often.
I remember a pretty wedding, with lots of guests.
This year my mom would have called me to say something about this day.
She is probably talking things over with Brian up in heaven. They were great buddies!
I don’t know what they are experiencing, but I know it’s wonderful. They are with Jesus.
To be absent in the body is to be present with the Lord.
I am headed to school for the day, then to swim. As my body recovers from having cancer last year I am really struggling with staying well and fit. I have seen great decline.
Self discipline has been hard.
Truth, kindness, discipline. These are my 2026 words, and they are just perfect for this year! Never have I needed to emphasize these words more in my life.
I was telling my students about focusing on virtues, and how I picked three words each year to see how they crop up in my life, how interesting it is when they hit my radar. I mentioned that I needed to find three words for 2027.
One sweet boy said, “How about excitement!”
I laughed. “That is a good one!” I replied.
Excitement. Inspiration. Groundedness.
These words followed. Interesting?
I have Youth Group tonight. I am a leader now. What a blessing!
Loved the retreat that happened a couple of weeks ago at Camp Shamineau. It was at that camp, in third grade, when I prayed to have Jesus be LORD of my life.
I never forgot that.
So many camps in my life, but that was a memorable moment.
Jesus is Lord of my life. Completely, wholly. I am so grateful. I can face my pain knowing He cares.
He loves me. Amazing fact that that is!
I choose to honor Him and trust Him, even on the sad days.
He’s coming for me.
Do you have Him as your Lord and Savior?
MARANATHA!